I know the seasons.
I know
the sudden outpouring
of kindness
that I am supposed
to pickle and somehow store
to eat during our
winters.
I know
to prepare,
to harvest every last
bit of goodness from you,
so that you are barren
when you leave,
but I am well stocked.
I love a machine, and you have become
a pacemaker,
quietly continuing the movement
of my body, which has forgotten how to move.
You have become
a thing that completes its task
and its task
and its task
for the sake
of its task.
I love you because my body moves to love you
for the sake of loving you,
and so
you love a machine, and I have become
a pacemaker.
There was once a lioness in her chest so bright
that her ribs cast shadows across the walls
and she was a lantern and a call.
The great beast
kept in the cage,
lost that which made it great.
It became just an ember and an exhale,
craving breath
to once again
be the fire, the light, and the thunderous roar.
She took her fingers, dug them
between her ribs, and spread them wide
to let the air back in
and the lioness out.
They did not tell you
that you would find me down here,
did they?
That once they trapped
a girl in the labyrinth and down she lay
until the monster came up, breathing
against the bottoms of her feet,
ready to devour the whole of her.
And she said,
“We are the same.”
And he halted, the human half of him
holding back the beast .
So here I stay, underneath the city,
presumed lost, starved if not devoured,
but either way dead.
But believe me, he and I are similar enough
that we dine the same.
As I walk through the field of fireflies,
I, for a moment, think that I
am a giant, drifting amid stars
as they are born, as they burn,
and as they die.
Today, it was another inch of snow on the rooftop.
Today, 517 inches. Each day another inch
of snow. Each day more
weight on every inch
of the roof
of the house.
Each day it was more
blinding, blank, and drifting snow
encasing the warmth
and the light
and the color
of the house,
until all that was left to see
from the outside was white.
Today, the roof collapsed.
I.
When you are born they will lay you on a magazine cover
and wonder why your face is not the face beneath you yet.
II.
There is a woman set high
above traffic,
above exhaust,
and the man beside you wonders why
your face is not the face above you.
III.
Your mother wonders why her face is not the face
in front of her any longer.
She wonders when you will become her.
IV.
You try to leave your face behind you,
and wonder why you're running in place.
In the mild winter months, I laid
beneath the swamp mud, breathing
in pressure and out space.
Reaching equilibrium, I allowed
stillness, the setting in of rot.
Collapsing lungs, I fall
in on myself
so nature abhors me less.